It Just Makes Me Feel Sick

It's the 3rd of August when these thoughts had hit me:
I hate waking up early. Never gonna be my cup of tea -- but I just can't stop it. It triggers my whole system, it's like a fire running from my toes up to my brain. I hate worrying it ends me up -- me doing nothing but overthinking. I hate it when people don't actually like me, but I can't force them anyways.. I hate it when my bestfriend suddenly just not talk to me. It makes me to even think harder. 

I'm at the balcony, drinking the usual coffee that I had, wishing that every pressure I am into right now was only an imagination of reality, because the truth is I can' handle everything! Complaining sucks i know, but pretending that "you can" sounds even worse!!