My First Heartbreak of the Year

          You managed to be my rain of sunshine. I would never mind spending my quarantine at home if it's with you. 

        I will miss those times when you can't sleep in your blanket so you'll reach out to us, and ended up lying beside me. 

         Yes, it was a pain sometimes because you pee in it, but I don't mind. I will miss those little scratches in my feet everytime I go out to the bathroom, because you always surprise and chase us by the door.

         I will miss those times when you help and annoy mama when she's doing plants stuff, like you always bite those cactus out of the blue.

        I will miss those times that you sit anywhere. In dad's feet, slippers, sofas (u often get scolded there) Job's chair, rugs. You also love umbrellas. 

        And now that you're gone, I will always yearn for those days. 8 months was reallyyyyyy a short time with you, but it was full of joy. I always ask myself why'd you leave us so soon, but I also thought that you need to rest too. I just hope you'd help me get over you when my phone's gallery is all about you. Even my phone's home screen was you. I felt so devastated. 

        If you didn't know, our cat Levi can't walk. His feet were paralyzed because of the incident that had happened when he was still a baby. We even consult a vet for him to recover, but it seems like his condition that time was critical because it hit his spine (unless you're going to pay for a big amount just to brace his back). 

        Taking care of him was not easy. You always need to prepare a sanitizer and a rug for the floor because he cannot feel that he's already peeing or pooping. He's more of an indoor cat. And we endured all of it. He was a happy and an energetic one despite of his condition.

           And then this situation happened-- recently, we noticed the wound he had below his feet and that caused him bacterial infection. We didn't even know at first but he suddenly stop eating. So we went to the vet and found out that his condition again was critical. So we tried all of the medications.

     But... it seems like he's giving up already. 

       Losing you really crushed me to pieces and all of us don't know how to get over you yet, I mean, you are always a part of our daily lives somehow.

I will always, love you, Levi. Rest easy. 

01/18/21